Principles Before Personalities

Tonite I have decided to leave my homegroup. Why? Because the guru who is in my homegroup, who rents the building we meet in and who has the keys to the building decided to cancel our group meeting for tonight on his own and did not discuss it with anyone – he gave the key to my partner – but my partner did not want to go because his guru sponsor was not going to be there, and then was annoyed at me because I insisted that I had to drive down there and sit outside in front to make sure no newcomers showed up.

My partner did not have permission from Mr. Guru to give me the key. Fuck You.

I am done. I am going to go talk to Mr. Guru either tomorrow or Tuesday because if I bring it up in our “group” which it is not – I will get so much heat from my partner for attacking his guru sponsor that it is just not worth it. I am going to talk to Mr. Guru and tell him that I am not going to be a part of that group anymore. I have been accused of attacking Mr. Guru in the past when he “bypassed the traditions” – so that’s why I am going to talk to him him in private.

There are only 3 members of our group – and I am one of them – no one comes to our group – because it is CLOSED they say – but then when we try to have a group conscience to discuss that – we don’t get anywhere.

It’s just that they don’t seem to want to admit that they are violating Traditions – verbally – with me – so I am going to free them from the shackles of this group – and myself too – I am going to go find another group that takes a group conscience.

I am not going to join it. I am just going to go regularly for a while and see if I can stand it. I know of a few groups that stayed open during this stupid fake plandemic that I am going to just go to and see about – but I am going to free myself form the bondage of fakery – and kill 2 birds with one stone –

the other bird I am killing is intermingling my program with my boyfriend’s. What a huge fucking mistake that has been! You would think I might have simply followed the direction of AAers around the world and not combined my sobriety with his, but OH NO!

I just had to be with him every second. This was the last straw – that I was told at the last fucking minute that my homegroup was cancelled??? You don’t cancel an AA meeting that is listed. NOPE. Done.

Yes, I was violating a few Traditions – because I have another affiliation with my partner – and the placing personalities before principles. Sorry Mr. Guru you will lose that income stream but too fucking bad. I am sick of not having a group conscience because you just want to do what you want to do and you don’t want to be called a club. Yuck. That’s like saying nonalcoholic beer doesn’t have .3% alcohol in it.